My question is...with the number 7 being the common number in my life, why do I feel so unlucky ? I feel like everything I try to accomplish turns into shit. This year has been incredibly painful and full of fucking bullshit. And the worse thing yet... I am becoming into the person that I hate the most.. a complainer.
Why can't I have everything back like it use to be ?
Why can't I have my father back ?
Why can't I have my boyfriend who loved me back when he didn't break my heart ?
Why can't I have my friends back when they actually gave a fuck about me and never left ?
Why can't I have my paychecks back ?
Why can't I have my health back ?
Why can't I have my happiness back ?
Everything is a struggle and I give up. I would just like things to work out for once...that's not too much to ask right ? But let's face it.. whenever a little light comes into my life, there is always the dark cloud to rain on the path that I try to make with my life. I am back to the old me... the old miserable, closed up and guarded person.
I thought the number 7 was suppose to be a lucky number.
You don't have to be the old you. Struggling.. well, it's a struggle, but as Kahlil Gibran said, "out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”
ReplyDeleteYou are scarred, damaged, and maybe you still have the imprints of heels on your face, but you are also beautiful, talented, and strong. things come in time, and always with struggle.
Keep your head up and your eyes down so you don't step in shit.